I don’t always listen to myself.
I listen to others, to their insight, and I take a moment to really absorb what people tell me.
But when it comes to listening to myself, I tend to block out the screams from soul until they become so loud that I literally cannot think.
Or until the universe has had enough of me trippin’ and decides to show me a thing or two.
In the past week I had one of these moments. I made the mistake of taking on a project that I felt unsettled about from the start. I backed myself into a corner, and the only way to come out of that is by kicking and screaming because ducking and dodging will only get you so far.
I’ve been reminded of how bad it feels to be doing something that is such a bad fit for so many reasons. I’ve been reminded of the pain that millions of people in Corporate America feel each day when they stumble through life, unconvinced that this is the life that they should be leading, but not entirely convinced that they should leave it behind either.
So we keep chugging along, swimming when we’re drowning, smiling when we’re trying not to cry, and putting on a brave face to try to trick the world.
But the one person you can never fool is yourself. Even when you think you’ve got a handle on blocking out your inner thoughts, your conscious telling you that something is wrong, something happens.
You stumble. You fall. The universe hits you with a “Look, B*tch” moment that you can’t ignore.
And while we live in a world that is so against failing and does everything possible to prevent it from happening, that space between failure and success is the prime time to look around and see how you got there, and where you want to go next.
It’s scary. It feels crazy. But it’s amazingly beautiful too.
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